light bulb moments

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have you ever had the feeling that something/someone was after you? i don't mean literally chasing you but im refering to that tiny feeling you sometimes get when you know the universe is about to reveal something big.

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well, lately i've been getting that vibe. recently the creative juices are flowing like crazy, time seems to go faster or slower depending on my mindset, i'm noticing things i never noticed before and today at 3.30am while trying to drown out hubby's engine revving snores it finally hit me. i don't mean to tease but i've decided not to reveal livvy's new project just yet for fear i might not actually go through with it. despite my new found enthusiasm for shall we call it 'project A', i can't keep track of how many projects i have annouced in the past that never came into fruition. tis was due to many reasons but procastination and laziness were usually the front runners.

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so why bother blogging about it??
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i guess as a reminder to myself of what happen this morning. not often do i get these 'light bulb moments' so i want to hold on to it for as long as possible.

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however this time around i'm approaching things differently. im using God as my source for feedback. rather than ask myself the questions that usually inject fear & frustration im leaving it up to Him to show me the way.
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i knew something good would eventually come from ed's snoring.

Mr Barcelona.... please be mine!

my love of exquisitely designed furniture has spilled from admiration to full out blown obsession. some people surf the net hunting for the perfect pair of shoes or other fashion accessories. some tune into music, movies and even porn (eeeick!), which if lucky could all be found on the same site. haha some search for food recipe's or in the case of my hubby, watch the nba on the espn site til the wee hours but my addiction is FURNITURE. cool, funky furniture that i couldnt possible afford!

lately ive been chasing that one single chair. you know, the one that doesnt really match with any other piece of furnishing you might have but in itself could be considered as art. the one ppl 'oooohh' & 'aaaahh' over when they first vissit your now funky cool pad and gasp when they hear the price tag, which could probably feed a small nation.

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everyone.... meet my baby - the barcelona chair.

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*sigggghhhhhh* ahhhh Mr Mies van de Rohe you know your stuff!!

now like everything that is fashionable there are of course many many knock offs all across the globe and almost every major furniture company has also stolen the design, made minor alternations and called it something else but to own an original would be simply to die for!

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however i admitt i'm treading on dangerous territory. once i have my beloved barcelona chair, will that be enough? won't i start drooling over Le Corbusier's designs or anything created by Alvar Aalto? and one needs that funky warehouse apartment to house these beautiful creations right? which then just opens up another can of 'awww crap!'.

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poor eddee.... i should of told him about my addiction from the start.

unfortunately

i bumped into a gal pal over the weekend (whom shall remain nameless) and i was absolutely gob smacked to discover that she had broken up with her bf of 5years or so due to infidelity, on his part. previous to the shocking news i always believed that this was a couple to envy. they seemed so perfect. loving and attentive not to mention that this chick is... in a word - gorgeous!! inside and out!!

this got me thinking. what causes someone to cheat?! of course you never really know what goes on between any relationship if you yourself are not in it but cmon, cheating is sooo old news! ive been hurt by infidelity before (tho im sure he would call it something else) and i know that sickening feeling of questioning your sense of worth when someone you care about tells you in so many words or by their actions that you are not enough.... for them. its a humbling and eye opening experience but i would never wish that on anyone.

in my opinion, since im entitled to have one, it bottles down to selfishness, such a basic human trait. to think of only yourself, how you feel and completely disregard the feelings of anyone else. you want something so you go for it and you stop at nothing til its yours. this is no different to ppl who step over others to get ahead in life. selfish! selfish! selfish!

we are all guilty of selfishness, it might not go as far as cheating but somehow it seems inbuilt in us to put ourselves before others or are we merely just looking after ourselves? when does self preservation become selfish? it's an endless debate that could go on forever and unfortunately i don't have an answer except maybe it boils down to our own conscience and what makes us sleep soundly.

faith is what pulled me through. faith in myself, faith in love, and faith that God always had my best intentions at heart and this was just a teeny tiny test that would ultimately make me a better person.

one of the benefits of being hurt before (yes there ARE benefits, tho hard to see at first) is that you trully appreciate the moments when love is present in your life and because you know better you endeavour near to hurt your special someone.

my special someone means the world to me and to have him in my life now makes all the previous heartache worthwhile.

to my gal pal - i promise you'l be fine and when you least expect it God will send you a person who will make you laugh louder than you have ever before and then you'll know *wink*

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with Ramadan around the corner eddee and i are trying super duper hard to be on our best behaviour. luckily for us we're surrounded by supportive friends who understand our desire to calm things down tho they still on occassions have been successful in dragging our asses out *ahem ebony&dinoG*. since taking those vows infront of God, family & friends ive never been more conscience of my actions and how it affects my marriage. i want us to set a good example for our future children and there's no better time than like the present to start. of course i say this now however come the weekend and il be like 'eddeee lets go out!' especially since a good friend is leaving and we're all taking him out to wish him bonvoyage while secretly plotting to kidnapp him and keep him here!!

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SALS... YOU CAN'T GO!!

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argh!

Just to let you know...

well its been around 2 months since becoming a wifey and i seem to have fallen off the planet, completely neglecting the 3-4 ppl who read this blog with updated news and pics. what can I say? im a newlywed and my disappearance into my marriage is forgivable… right? *cheesy grin*

i know i still need to post up pics of my honeymoon and all the rest but for now that will have to wait. in the interest of saving time heres a summary of life so far as Mrs Chia.

- my flu-like-symptoms turned into a nasty chest infection which left me with a terrible cough which ive only JUST got over.
- we finally found a place of our own in Maylands, just on the border of Mt Lawley & Inglewood. i absolutely love it! 10 mins from the city and in walking distance to all the funky cafes and restaurants.
- married life is soooo blissful. i love ironing while watching a good dvd, making the bed and cooking with the hubby. Am calls it my nesting period which as a newlywed is quite expected. i’m sure this time will pass so im relishing in these moments while it still feels like delightful tasks rather than chores.
- Livvy has her decorator hat on and a shameless relationship with IKEA. moving out isn’t easy and while i appreciate the hand-me-downs i feel like a kid in a candy store whenever we buy something new for the pad, even if its only tea towels. eeeeeiiiiiii!!! haha
- family times – ive been spending more time with the family which feels more important than before i got married. they’ve been incredibly supportive and not to mention generous since we’ve been back, especially my dad who spent an entire week hunting down a fridge for us and then picked it up and delivered it to us himself. what a champ!
- i love my husband. Ed makes me laugh. he helps me clean up after dinner. he takes out the garbage bin without me asking and he ALWAYS kisses me goodbye before he goes to work, even if im still half asleep.

ive never been happier.